- A Follower of Christ
- A college student
- A girl with a passion to help others
- A sinner
After trying to decide what I wanted to write my first post about, I became torn between two topics: 1. God's grace and 2. His faithfulness. I finally decided that this time, I'll address His faithfulness. God's faithfulness is something that utterly blows my mind. Even when I am totally faithLESS, He is always there, patiently waiting for me to come to my senses and run, full speed, back to Him.
Throughout my walk with Him, there have been so many times when I lacked faith. For instance: I went through a tough breakup a little over a year ago. I had been with my ex- boyfriend for about three years, and the separation completely shut me down. I had put everything I had into that relationship-- my entire heart, and so much more. I thought that it would last forever, but it didn't. I was left alone feeling depressed, worthless, dirty, and broken. I had reached such a dark place that I felt that even God wouldn't want me back. I didn't realize until recently that, at the time, I was simply afraid to let go of my past. I was too ashamed to ask for forgiveness. I didn't want to admit that I was wrong. I was running from God at the time that I needed Him the most. I had no faith that anything would ever get better for me which caused me to have occasional suicidal thoughts. But one day while laying on the couch, pitying myself, I had a major realization that hit me hard. I realized that the Lord had been there all along and that my heart ache and my pain was just the end of a chapter in my book and that my book wasn't over yet. I also realized that through my mistakes, God gave me a window to relate with those who have experienced similar pain and as time went on, I noticed His faithfulness in everything. After my large bout of faithlessness, I have gone through a few more valleys where I was far from faithful to God. It's so easy sometimes to get out of the habit of reading the Bible and talking to the Lord everyday. But when I go through those dry patches, I'm convicted my Hosea 6:3 which says "Let us acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth." He is ever present and ever faithful and we need to acknowledge that fact. No matter what we go through, no matter where we are in life, He is always there calling after us, waiting for us to return to Him. His love, His grace, His faithfulness, it never runs out. As I write this, I have "Brokenness Aside" by All Sons and Daughters playing on repeat. The song is a beautiful picture of what I talked about through this post. The second verse and the chorus are: "Will you call me child, if I tell you lies? Cause all I know is how to cry. I am a sinner, if it's not one thing, it's another. Caught up in words, tangled in lies. But you are a savior and you take brokenness aside and make it beautiful." How awesome is it that we serve a God who can take any situation we're in and turn it around, make it beautiful, and then use us to glorify Him through our experience??
Be blessed, know that you're loved, you are worthy, and that no matter what you're going through, God is beside you for every step. The only reason you are in a situation that you can't handle is because God is waiting for you to let it go and turn it over to Him. Have faith in Him and trust Him, He'll never let you down.
